Stuck in the Tower (From “The Story Circle”)
Story 8
Stuck in the Tower
Eshan stared out of the window and hummed to himself. Another day in the tower.
Down below, boys and girls, in their separate little groups played happily. Eshan looked at the girls playing hopscotch and imagined himself joining them. Then he stopped imagining it. It was better this way.
He turned back to his room. It was a large room, filled with things that could keep him occupied endlessly. The best things were the picture books that he could stare at for hours, admiring the intricate artwork. He had even tried to recreate some of the drawings himself but had not been able to. In frustration, he had thrown the notebook across the room.
Eventually, he got the notebook back, dusted it off and sketched some of his own drawings in it. This occupied him for long periods of time, and his focus was only broken by helpers coming in to serve him food. They all asked him if he wanted to go out and play, but he refused every time.
Eshan was obviously concerned about the fact that he had been ripped from his home and deposited here without explanation or escape, but somehow he wasn’t too concerned. There was something odd about this tower that he couldn’t explain: It seemed familiar, like a second home. He knew he was in no danger here.
He sat down with his pad and his paints and coloured pencils. He had barely touched the first pencil to the paper when the door swung open.
Eshan, startled, looked up. One of the helpers was in the doorway, looking apologetic. Stranger still, he had no food or duster in his hand. Why was he there?
“Sahabji, apologies, but you need to go down and play.”
“What?” said Eshan, completely thrown off.
“Yes, I have been asked most strictly to convey this to you from one of the highest authorities.”
“Who?” Eshan demanded.
“It does not matter,” said the helper, bowing. The man was clearly uncomfortable and stuck in a difficult situation. Eshan saw this, but he also saw that he was being forced to do something he didn’t want to. He empathised[1] with the man’s discomfort deeply and so, reluctantly, he picked up his materials. He pressed his nose against the glass of the window, once more staring at the children playing below.
When he reached the entrance to the garden, he continued to stare. The strange thing was that even though the children were now in front of him, it didn’t seem like that. The boys were splashing water at each other and at the peacocks playing in the fountain. Two girls, their hands clasped together, were chasing the other girls. Looking at all the boys, Eshan understood why the tower had felt so much like home. He had spent all his life trying to avoid being around anyone else. It was safer. Nobody could bully him or tease him while he was away. It was like he was always in a tower that he had made, that kept the rest of the world outside.
Eshan ignored it. In fact, he was determined to ignore the whole lot of them. He was better off on his own. He chose a comfortable spot on a bench in one of the gardens and set down his materials. He sat down on the bench, intent on continuing his drawing.
But, of course, his appearance didn’t go unnoticed for too long. Soon enough, all sounds of play stopped. Whispers and laughter arose instead. Ignore it, thought Eshan. Ignore.
That soon became impossible, as one of the boys, probably on a dare, broke off from the group and approached Eshan.
“Hi,” he said.
“Hi,” replied Eshan, looking up briefly before going back to his work.
“So, what’s your name?” the boy asked.
“Eshan.” He didn’t look up this time.
“My name is Nebu. Would you like to come play with us?”
Eshan looked up, surprised. “You want to play with me?”
“Yes, of course!” Nebu said, smiling.
Eshan looked at the assembled group of children, all eyeing him intently. However much he pretended otherwise, he did actually want to play. So he stood up and followed Nebu back to the others.
“This is Eshan, everyone!” Nebu announced.
Some of them waved hi, some said, “Hi, Eshan!” Eshan waved back.
“Eshan wants to play.” Nebu continued. The boys cheered and high-fived each other. “A new challenger! Yay!” they said. The girls just rolled their eyes. One of them said, “Okay, who was chasing?”
“Can I be the one chasing?” Eshan asked tentatively.
The girls just stared at him with confused looks on their faces. The boys burst into laughter. Nebu came up to him and whispered, “What are you doing? Sakli[2] is a girls’ game. You’ve got to play with us.”
Before Eshan could reply, the girls went running off. Nebu gave him a pitying look before a kid, as big as Eshan, but with more muscle, came up to him and handed him a stick.
“What is this?” Eshan asked.
The big kid laughed. One boy asked, “Are you sure you’re a boy?”
“Of course I am!” Eshan said angrily.
“This is what you’re going to use to fight, Eshan,” whispered Nebu urgently, holding his arm. “I hope you know how to use it, because Ranjit does not go easy.”
“But I don’t know how to use it!” Eshan whispered back. “I don’t like fighting!”
“Let’s begin!” Ranjit growled. Nebu stepped back quickly, and before Eshan could do anything, Ranjit was rushing towards him, his stick held in his hands like a sword. Eshan jumped back, raising his stick instinctively, but Ranjit easily pushed it away. Ranjit then began pelting Eshan with blows. Bam. One to the shoulder. Boom. One to the head. Smack. One to the arm.
Eshan started to run and Ranjit, not ready to give up, began to chase him, waving the stick around. The boys started to cheer and laugh. The peacocks in the fountain ruffled their lush feathers and walked away indignantly. Eshan soon veered into the middle of the girls’ play, and they shouted at him and Ranjit. Eshan just wanted to get away from that stick as fast and as far as he possibly could. Ranjit’s bulk slowed him down, but, ultimately, it didn’t matter. Eshan crashed into one of the girls, called Sheela, running in the opposite direction as him. Together, they both went down in a big pile.
Everyone gathered around them. There was a huge sobbing cry that emerged from the pile, and the groups quickly tried to separate the two. The girls picked up Sheela and sought to console her, before realising that she wasn’t the one crying. Eshan, with his face to the ground, sobbed freely. It didn’t matter anymore. They had already heard him crying. There was no use hiding it.
“What a crybaby!” Ranjit said.
“Told you he was a girl!” whispered another.
“Stop that!” Eshan said, turning around and sitting up. “I’m not a baby! Or a girl!”
“Hey…” said Nebu, crouching down next to Eshan and patting him on the shoulder. “It’s okay…”
“No!” Eshan said, pushing his hand away, “It’s not okay.” He spoke through the tears angrily, “Why…why do you call me a girl?”
“Because you wanted to play a girly game,” blurted out Ranjit. “And you don’t know how to fight.”
“Who said that game is only for girls?!” snapped Eshan.
Everyone looked at each other uneasily. “Because…well, girls have always played it,” said one of the boys.
“So if I play it something will happen to me?” Eshan asked.
“Well…no,” said Nebu.
“So then?”
The children all looked confused.
“And so what if I can’t fight? Do all boys need to fight? Doesn’t the world have enough fighting?”
“But…you’re crying,” Ranjit blurted. “My papa always says that boys are not supposed to cry.”
“So that means your papa never gets sad?” Eshan challenged.
Ranjit thought for a while. “I don’t think so…” he said finally. “But he gets angry very quickly.”
Something clicked in Eshan’s head, like a switch being flicked on, which shone a light on something he had not understood before.
“I’m…I’m angry all the time,” Eshan said quietly. “Every time I don’t cry, every time someone upsets me and I don’t say anything, I get angry.”
The others stared at him as he got to his feet, wiping the tears away. “I… stayed stuck in the tower because I thought that I had to be different. I had to change. Nobody liked me this way. But…I like me this way. I was made this way. If boys aren’t supposed to cry, then I also shouldn’t be able to become sad. But I can become sad…and it’s okay to be sad sometimes.”
Sheela came up to Eshan and wiped away his tears. Eshan smiled at her. Sheela turned to the boys and asked angrily, “Hey, why do you guys think it’s such a bad thing for someone to be a girl anyway?”
“Yeah,” said one of the other girls, stepping forward. “We can play your games too. I bet I could defeat you easily in sword-fighting.” she challenged them. “You don’t believe me? Let’s try it!” So saying, she picked up Eshan’s fallen stick and faced the baffled boys. Eshan smiled and said to Sheela, “I don’t think girls are bad, you know. It’s more about…how they say it than what they’re saying.”
Sheela returned the smile and nodded. “Come, you can be the chaser in sakli.”
And so Eshan stepped through the glass window that had separated him from the rest of the world, and tried his best to experience all the emotions he could on the other side.
[1] Empathy is the ability to understand and feel what someone else is feeling. To be empathetic is one of the most important qualities for a person to have.
[2] An ancient game, it was played by children till mobile phones and iPads invaded. Whenever you caught someone, you held hands with them and ran.
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